demagogue on 18/2/2013 at 12:18
On the topic of purple-prose and suicide fantasy, I never contemplated anything like suicide myself. I really, really love life to my bones and the idea of not getting to do it anymore makes no sense to me (although I recognize others see things differently). But I am regularly bewildered & alienated by how stupid & evil most of the rest of the world seems to be, and I have no qualms in thinking "Well fuck you too world. I'm out of here." and I give up on it because I frankly don't think it deserves me.
Don't get me wrong: of course we all have to swallow our pride and make a living too, which inevitably involves wading into the stupid evil thick of it all the time. Actually I'm not adverse to that part... I think knocking one's ego down a few notches periodically is healthy; we're not born some superhumans that we can't clean the toilet sometimes or have to sit through some ridiculous training seminar or perverse firedrill that demeans our intelligence & humanity, or do soul-crushing shit-work to pay the bills, or be a buffoon to our kids or nephews to make them laugh, or whatever.
But that wasn't really the demeaning evil stuff I'm talking about, since it's still part of making an "honest living". The real demeaning evil shit is stuff that has no purpose but to spread hate or idiocy or humiliation in the world for no better reason than because the world can't be arsed to double-check its dogma & it just blithely ruins everything and pisses in the punch because it can. This is what makes me rage quit life sometimes, flipping a bird to it that nobody sees, and playing this track is the best thing I could find to express my deep, utter disdain for
how fucking stupid & evil you are sometimes, world. Fuck you from gates of hell. Don't bother replying because I'm already in another universe lightyears away from this shit:
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(How was that?)
